I've always had this irrational fear of the ocean and can't relax when at the beach specially when I'm chest deep. I feel like a shark will suddenly pop out of nowhere and eat me.
Don't know how that fear ever started though. hmmmmmm . . . . . .
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not that surprising really because everybody knows I'm a bossy dictator control freak lol.
It is sad to say that recently, there have been and there still is friction between Marchy, Osay, Bea, and recently, Jason, Mint and I.
It all started when a misunderstanding became bigger as it should be and the blame, sad to say, falls upon Marchy. Although Osay did commit a mistake, she has in full humility however accepted that and apologized accordingly. Marchy however, failed to recognize the mistake that she did and even after being confronted directly about it continuously refused to do so.
Ever since, she has sent numerous gm’s through ym and text. All of which were meant to hurt specific people. She insistently send messages in a way that reminds me of petty high school fights, through “parinig”.
I have been keeping my patience all this time however since I felt that we could still settle things in a more approvable manner. However, after she sent another gm mocking one of the mods, namely, Jason who I care deeply for and as you all know is one of my closest friends, I felt that it is time to give my piece of mind about the situation.
Honestly, I can’t really blame Marchy for using “parinigs” instead of giving out direct messages. Although I personally am not used to dealing with such petty and immature things since I grew up in an environment where we go directly to the source of the problem, deal with it, and get things over with as quickly as possible, well, I suppose it’s only natural for someone who can’t even maintain decent grades at school to get educated properly to use such pitiful means. I mean really, when you can only pass 2 subjects, P.E and English, out of all the subjects being taught at school, well, I guess the only ideas that come into your head are those that only elementary and High school students use.
She even said we’re “trying hard to be akaru”s trying to lure us into her ridiculous world of complete idiocy. It’s pretty clear that her world is full of moronic imaginings and dilapidated versions of reality.
She obviously thinks of herself as someone who everybody in the fandom have high regards for even though we all know that’s not the case. It’s actually quite funny that she thinks that way when the truth is, most people look and talk to her and think of how much an attention seeker she is.
She has, over and over again tried to gain attention through any means and I’m quite positive that people will agree to this.
It’s really sad to see someone drown in their own desperation for even a tiny parcel of attention.
One of the major reasons I’ve learned to dislike her is when she apparently “decided” to end her friendship with Bea (arashi_matsujun). She didn’t even have enough courage to say that through at least telephone. She did that horrendous act through mere sms. Bea is also one of my closest friends and I know that she has sacrificed a lot for her friendship with Marchy. I find it unnerving that she can treat such a thing as friendship as if it were a simple thread that she can easily tie up again when she feels like it.
If I were one of the people connected to her in any way at all, I’d be double guessing if I’d like to keep such a mean spirited person with and around me.
Nobody wants to be with someone they can’t trust anyway. So perhaps, those of you who consider Marchy as a friend should at least consider if she’s worthy enough to receive your friendship.
Some of you might remember that I appointed her as Temporary Admin a few months ago. Looking back, and looking at the statistics and just realizing what happened while she was in charge, I’d say that was one of my biggest mistakes.
That time, while she was temporary administrator, registration and posting went down dramatically even though we were only within 2 weeks since we started the forum.
So, she’s not only immature, disloyal, untrustworthy, an attention seeker and a desperate, crazy, nut job who was able to afford her own little world, she’s also irresponsible even though she talks big.
I’m glad that most people and the people around me are not like her. Most of you guys are strong, mature, honest and loyal people who I am more than happy to be friends with.
I’m not perfect and I know that I have done mistakes too. But each time I do, I try to my best to understand the situation and make things better even if I have to eat my words and humbly apologize.
Marchy isn’t like that at all.
Somehow, I just wish that people like Marchy would just disappear and let us be. All of this wouldn’t have happened if she has only admitted to the fact that she too did something wrong. She could have said a simple “I’m sorry too because I made you cry Osay” and ended everything then. Unfortunately for us, she chose the wrong path and decided that instead of trying to maintain peace, she’d instead create something else . . . . . hatred.
I trust that none of you will ever be like her. I just hope you guys won’t prove me wrong.
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